What I owe the International Debut Novel Competition

Let’s say you’re a writer – as-yet unpublished, but that doesn’t matter; you’ve absolutely earned your stripes. You would move heaven and earth to get time at your desk. You’ve attended the workshops, you’ve sought out the advice of beta readers over multiple drafts, you revise obsessively, if not aggressively. Moreover, you are never not writing, technically, because you write in your head while you walk the dog, grocery shop, drive to and from work. You talk to your characters in your sleep, and worry sometimes you might know them better than you know yourself.

If any of this sounds like you, then now is a very good time to check out the Irish Writer Centre’s International Debut Novel Competition.

Three years ago, this was me. And, if I’m being honest, it’s still me. The only material difference is that I’ve now finally published that book which was eating me alive, and have moved on to being eaten alive by another. Please don’t send help; I’m quite happy like this. If my head wasn’t currently in the mouth of a manuscript I wouldn’t know what to do with myself.

But in September of 2021, I was on the verge of letting it all go. After over a decade at work on my novel, Lightborne, I had nothing to show but a teetering pile of rejections – all told, close to 200, a perfectly respectable number at which to throw in the towel.

I had heard about the International Debut Novel Competition (then known as the Novel Fair) through the Irish writing community grapevine, despite being an American living in Spain. I knew the deadline was approaching and had been dragging my feet on submitting, sure I wouldn’t be chosen anyway. After nigh on 200 rejections, why on earth should I expect a “yes”?

Eventually, I submitted on a whim, telling myself this was it – if I didn’t get in, I’d take it as the universe’s way of telling me to give up.

And let me tell you, by the time acceptances went out, I had given up. In fact, I’d forgotten about the whole thing, and nearly missed my chance altogether when my acceptance letter ended up in spam (CHECK YOUR SPAM, PEOPLE!) Fortunately, I was able to get in touch with the IWC in the nick of time.

But things didn’t end there, because the International Debut Novel Competition is like no other. In fact, I’d just signed up for the ultimate novel-pitching boot camp.

At the heart of the competition are the two Pitch Days, held remotely or onsite at the IWC’s glorious location in central Dublin, wherein we little unpublished hopefuls (twelve of us, at the time) met individually with agents and editors, and, well, did our best to sell them our books. Going into it, I had read press write-ups describing Pitch Days as “Dragon’s Den for writers,” which had done nothing for my nerves. But rather than stone-faced bigwigs just salivating for a chance to dash someone’s dreams, the agents and editors we met with were universally kind, friendly, and genuinely interested in our projects. Even those who were not appropriate for my particular book asked insightful questions and patiently answered my naive inquiries. I learned more about the publishing world in those two days than I had in 10 years.

Let’s say I didn’t strike gold at the Pitch Days – a possibility for which I mentally prepared myself, even as things seemed to be going quite well. An agent offer or publishing deal are after all not guaranteed by participating in the competition. What would I have gotten out of it then?

In a word: confidence. Halfway through the first Pitch Day, well before I received my first manuscript request, I already felt like a rockstar. Moreover, I now had tools I’d never even known I needed as a writer. Pathways I had never thought to try before, or didn’t even know existed, had opened up before me. Yes, in the end I was lucky enough to meet my amazing agent during those days, but even if I hadn’t, I would have come away leagues ahead of where I’d started.

I also came away with lifelong connections to other writers, and to the wonderful Irish Writers Centre itself. Despite living in another country, I know I can find support and resources through the IWC – and, whenever I do make it to Dublin, an open door and friendly faces.

This is all a long-winded way of saying that, as a writer, I owe the International Debut Novel Competition a LOT. Maybe everything, I dunno.

Since I participated in 2022, I’ve seen old writing connections from back home in the States enter and win, I’ve seen writers who thought of themselves as mere hobbyists discover they’ve got a hit on their hands, I’ve seen writers who had no luck on Pitch Days end up internationally published anyway. No matter what, winning the International Debut Novel Competition is not the end of the road, but only a beginning. And what a beginning it is!

Submissions to the International Debut Novel Competition close THIS SUNDAY, September 14th, 2025.

All relevant info, including past winners, submission guidelines, and tips on how to prepare your application (even the dreaded synopsis) may be found on the Irish Writers Centre’s website.

Featured Image courtesy of the Irish Writers Centre.

Lightborne Updates: UK Trade Paperback OUT NOW!

Today is filled with all the usual excitement, expectation, and nail-biting dread of every milestone I’ve faced thus far in this weird business of being a published author. However, today also marks a bittersweet end of the road in my publishing journey. Unless I pull a Pachinko within the next year or two, this will be the last UK pub day Lightborne ever gets.

I loved this book. I worked on it through my 20s and 30s, and into my 40s. It was a way of life for so long that tearing myself away from it took nearly as much discipline as writing the damn thing. Now I’ve moved on, and it already feels distant at times, but the lessons I learned in writing it will hopefully stick with me forever.

I’ve been living a weird double-life over the past two years, embarking on my next book while my first was making its international debut by slow stages. In the beginning, transitioning away from a book I knew so well I could set the characters free in the maze of my head and simply sit back and “observe” them was painful at times. After two years, I still don’t know my new cast of characters that well, although I am getting closer. It’s a strange feeling to be back in a part of the writing process which I last experienced so long ago it’s only a distant memory for me, leading me to second-guess myself – to think I’m doing it wrong. Connecting with other writers is keeping me grounded, but I already can’t wait to be in the 15th or 20th revision again, at the point where “mess becomes book.”

Those are some of my most treasured memories of Lightborne, even now. While publication is exciting and vindicating, it’s also a lengthy process of letting go. And while I still love “my boys” – even the wicked ones (looking at you, Poley) – I will never again experience that sense of mutual habitation that came with writing their story. This is what people mean, I suppose, when they talk about being visited by the Muse: a collaboration between me and the imaginary beings I’ve created, acting not independently of me (obviously) but in ways I can’t entirely explain. People also call writing a lonely profession, but when the writing is going well, it’s anything but.

So I’m a bit sad, but very excited to keep working, keep writing, and celebrate not the last, but the first of many last, glorious voyages of my debut into the world, with hope that it will find readers who will love it and need it as much as I did.

Safe travels, boys. 💙

Lightborne Launches Stateside

I look back on the past version of myself who brought their laptop to their US book launch with the intention of keeping their blog updated and think, “Oh, you sweet summer child – so innocent, so full of big dreams!” In the end, I didn’t have time to unpack the laptop, let alone to sit up through my jetlag reaping the whirlwind of emotions for content. Even now, much of my trip to Boston, Massachusetts remains a blur of happy reunions with old friends, rooms filled with watchful, attentive faces, visits to old stomping grounds, old favorite beers in old favorite bars, new favorite books bought in new favorite bookshops.

At least one thing is clear: I’m extremely lucky. Not everyone gets their dream launch in their dream location with their dream conversation partner; not everyone gets to sit on a panel of rockstar authors and read their work to a packed audience. But I’ve been lucky for quite some time. I was lucky twelve years ago, when I discovered GrubStreet Boston’s Novel Incubator program and joined a community full of lifelong friends who all share a passion for the craft of writing. I was lucky to have some of the best writing instructors out there, Michelle Hoover and Lisa Borders, who gave me all the support I could possibly need.

There’s a bittersweetness to it all. Returning to the last place I called home just as the whole country is turning its gaze towards the abyss infuses even joyful moments with a sharp tang of dread. I fear for many of the friends I left behind, nearly all of whom said the same thing as we bade each other goodbye: “If the shit hits the fan, I’m coming to stay with you!” They were only half-joking, I could tell, just as I was only half-joking when I answered of course they could stay with me, I’d take every single one of them in if I could. Many told me how lucky I was to have gotten out when I did, how lucky I am to be so far away, which is a hard thing to hear, given how much I’ve missed them, and how much I’ve missed the place where, they say, I’m so lucky to no longer live.

I’ll have more to say on all of that later. For now, I’d like to just hang onto the excitement and gratitude of these days. I’d like to thank Nicole Vecchiotti and Timothy Deer, the organizers of Craft on Draft, as well as our hosts at Trident Booksellers, our Master of Ceremonies Cameron Dryden, and my fellow panelists Thérèse Soukar Chehade, Henriette Lazaridis and Janet Rich-Edwards. Thanks to Porter Square Books and to Marketing Director Josh for throwing Lightborne a launch party to remember, and to my conversation partner Michelle Hoover for knowing exactly the right questions to ask. A huge thanks to my publicist Meghan Jucszak at Pegasus Books, who helped put everything together.

A final shout-out also to the many dear friends who rallied together to give Lightborne the send-off I’ve always dreamed of. I told many of you that we have to come back and do it all again soon, and I mean it. This is a world that needs more art, more joy, more luck to go around. I sincerely hope we get to share in that.

Lightborne’s USA Launch Schedule & Event Registration

At long last I can finally announce my US “mini-tour” plans – “mini” because it is indeed very wee, but “tour” because it requires way more travel than the average book tour to pull it off. Though returning to my old stomping grounds in Boston, Massachusetts from my new home here in Spain gets more complicated (and expensive) every year, it has always been my dream to launch Lightborne in the same city where it first leaped onto the page – albeit in a very different form than now.

It’s been over ten years since that first version came about, but finally, this October, I’ll be making a few stops around the Boston area to celebrate Lightborne’s US birthday:

October 22, 2024: “Craft on Draft” at Trident Booksellers, Newbury St. Boston, MA at 7pm – 9pm.

From the organizers: “Craft on Draft is a reading series created and managed by alumni of GrubStreet Boston’s Novel Incubator program devoted to great fiction and the mechanics behind it. This session’s topic: ‘Whose History?’ asks, can historical fiction radicalize and revolutionize? Come hear four authors discuss how they’re working to change mainstream perceptions of historical fiction by broadening the genre to include queer folx, non-white/non-Occidental people, even the ‘ordinary,’ non-aristocratic, outsiders, boundary pushers, changemakers… Spend an evening discussing stories that go beyond dead kings and queens to hash out what’s at stake in our reimagining of the past.  

With Hesse Phillips (Lightborne), Henriette Lazaridis (Last Days in Plaka), Therese Soukar Chehade (We Walked On), and Janet Rich Edwards (Canticle). Moderated by Carla Miriam Levy.”

Free and open to all, but please do register.

October 23, 2024: Lightborne Official US Launch at Porter Square Books: Hesse Phillips in Conversation with Michelle Hoover, Massachusetts Ave. Cambridge, MA at 7pm – 8pm.

From the time Lightborne was still a sprawling mess of loosely connected, overly ambitious ideas, I’d always dreamed of one day having a launch at Porter Square Books’ Cambridge location, just down Spring Hill from my old apartment in Somerville. They’ll be in brand new quarters by the time I finally get to do it, but no matter – we’re still in for a great evening in one of the most vibrant independent bookstores in the Boston area. With lively discussion led by Michelle Hoover, host of The 7AM Novelist Podcast, founder and instructor of the Novel Incubator Program at GrubStreet Boston (where Lightborne was born) and author of Bottomland and The Quickening; along with a reading (or two) performed by yours truly.

Free for all to attend, but please register here to help out our hosts!

Before I jet back across the Atlantic, I’ll also be stopping in at all my old favorite book shops to load up on probably more books than luggage weight restrictions will allow, and to leave a trail of signed copies in my wake. You’ll soon be able to pick one up at Porter Square Books’ locations in Cambridge or Boston, The Harvard/MIT COOP, Trident Booksellers, All She Wrote Books, or the Harvard Book Store.

This post will be updated with further information as it becomes available, so do check back. I hope some of you out there can join me on what will be an incredibly special trip – a return to the city I still often think of as home, even from the other side of the world, and a chance to see friends new and old, some for the first time in years.

Dublin Event: “From Novel Fair to Novel Debut,” 25 Sept

Quick update to announce that on 25 September at 6:30PM I’ll be participating in an evening of readings at the Irish Writers Centre along with three of my fellow Novel Fair winners from 2022. This will be my first experience reading my own work in [mumbles indistinctly] years, so naturally I’m quite nervous, though there is a theatre-kid in me who is definitely treating this like an opening night on the West End.

It’s damn near impossible to overstate how much I owe the IWC’s legendary Novel Fair. When I applied to the Novel Fair in September 2021 it was truly a last-ditch effort to make the past 20 years I’d spent writing, revising, and unsuccessfully querying my novel Lightborne all worthwhile. I honestly felt I had little hope of being selected, and so had no sooner sent in my application but forgotten about it. So, you can imagine my surprise when an email from Ireland landed in my inbox a month or so later, with very good news. It’s hard to believe now just how close I’d been to giving up – even harder to imagine where I might be today had I not decided to give Lightborne one final push.

Being a debut author is hardly all glitz and glam. Mostly you just bite your nails and pray you’ll make back your advance eventually. But publishing a book is absolutely worth celebrating. I can’t think of a more perfect place than the IWC, the place where my struggling little book got a second chance at life, nor better company than my fellow Novel Fair alums.

So, here are the details for any Dublin friends who might like to attend:

Join Novel Fair winners Alison Langley (Ilona Gets A Phone), Phyllida Taylor (Across the Ford), Brian Kelly (Murph) and Hesse Phillips (Lightborne) as they read from their debut novels and talk about their publishing journeys, all of which began at the Irish Writers Centre. With Q&A hosted by Cauvery Madhavan, book signing, and a wine reception to follow.

25 September 2024, 6:30 PM – 8:30 PM
19 Parnell Sq. Dublin 1